CD14-17

Jamie will be out of town for work. I'm not thrilled because there is some peak fertility time we will be missing, but what can we do? C'est la vie.

I have to remind myself this is not my will, but His will. I need to let it go. I keep taking it back.

I want to count out the days and think ahead to when the NEXT time I ovulate will be, but I have still yet to ovulate this month. Let it go, Aimee, let it go and let God take it...

Frustration

I am so frustrated. I counted the days and it looks like I will ovulate on a Saturday. Now, that wouldn't be a big deal for me to do the iui on Saturday, but it falls the same day as my mom's 50th birthday party. I just don't thing logistically I will have time and be able to rest properly afterwards.

I'm just so tired of this. I want to cry. I just want a baby already.

I had a mini meltdown earlier this week. Jamie told me he's sad we were so responsible all those years. It's crazy really when you think about all the money we spent on birth control. I will NEVER go back on the pill.

It's Come to THIS?!?!

I am taking Wheat Germ Oil and Omega 3 capsules three times a day. I read some anecdotal evidence that suggests it increases fertility. If I do not ovulate on the weekend and Jamie is not out of town for work we are going to do an iui (intrauterine insemination). They wash the sperm and use a canula to deposit them through the cervix.

Tick Tock

Almost time to test.

I'm having one of the worst acne break outs of my life. Y'all know I NEVER have acne. Maybe one pimple with my period, but NEVER more than that. I will refrain from photographing the blemishes.

I'm going to wait a few days to test. I cannot handle the heartbreak of one line anymore.